It's amazing that despite good news it's possible to think about inadequacies, the pressure to continuously prove yourself, or the nagging internal thought that you have to do more. I recently nailed several interviews (some scheduled and some impromptu) for adjunct positions at a graduate school. I'm still not satisfied even though I left the building with several job offers and a for sure position for the summer. It's just I have to focus on right now. I have to get through the 4 course assignments that are due next week, finish grading the papers for the students I currently have in my 2 courses, continuously work on transcription, figure out coding, work on syntax, schedule interviews, manage 2 research projects, and somehow keep breathing and sleeping. Meanwhile, my laundry is piling up, I can't look forward to our apartment brunch, I have to fight negative text sending, and put on new socks every day. At least I have something to keep my mind off of that terrible February holiday coming up.
I'm so sleep deprived.