On a personal note

I had to admit to someone that I am purposefully guarded to make sure that I am able to meet my academic goals first. I made her cry with a simple truth. I know deep down there was something wrong with my logic but it was really striking to see it's immediate impact on someone that isn't on the receiving end. It makes me think--what do those that are on the receiving end feel like? Those that want to know what it's like to love an unguarded version of myself? LOL, jk…there’s no one willing to come near this mess while wearing horse blinders.